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Return? [09 Jan 2007|03:20pm]
Yes... I think that's an appropriate title... I'm returning I guess... O_o

I don't know if any of you are gonna read this... But you should. :D Cause this is me, informing you, that I'm re-establishing contact with some of you.

So get ready?

And don't worry, I have changed. If you didn't like me because I was too bitchy/whiney/etc. Don't worry about it, I'm not like that anymore. I'm not a love sick torn emo depressed fucker. >.> So my presence may be appreciated now. (I also do my occasional dumb stunt, but not for the same attention demanding reason... Now it's a rare occurance, and for a good few laughs.)

So prolly in a little bit here, if you have a myspace, and are on my friends list, I'm gonna message you. O_o Fore-warning.
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OMGZ0RZ [08 Sep 2006|02:46pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Well this is a first. I haven't posted a day after my last post in awhile. Well, that's just fine and dandy, cause I feel like doing it. :D

Well, if you read my last post, you saw that I've found a new path to life. And you know what? It rocks. Today, during school, I tried being more friendly. I tried different ways to say hello to different people, and I got a better response each time. I saw this girl walking with like... 93894829834 text books, and I offered to help her to class. BLAM new friend. O_o It's amazing how good it feels to help. It's great to know that I made that person happier for atleast that short time from her locker to her class.


Alright, it's well known that I like to draw attention to myself, and it was only just last year that I realized I can make people laugh without harming myself. GREAT! A great deal less pain for me, and more laughs to brighten my day, and others. As known, I can't go a day without laughter. "A day without laughter, is a day wasted." -Charlie Chaplin. It's a great quote. But back on topic! A friend of mine, Lizz, she was having a shit day. We've all had one, we all know how it goes, and she was sad. In no mood to talk. Within minutes I had her laughing so hard she was crying. I looked her in the eye and saw for myself how laughter makes people feel better, and forget their problems... Atleast for a little while. And if I could feel even a fraction of what Dr. Adams feels when he makes patients laugh, then I want more of that. I don't know... Maybe it's the look in their eye, maybe it's knowing that I made them forget their problems, atleast for that time, and made them happy. Maybe it's all of that. Whatever it is, I want more of it. I even dare call it my drug of choice. If making people feel better about themselve through humor was a narcotic, then lable me a fuckin' druggy.

I don't know why, but I'm happier now then I've ever been. I'm more confident now then I've ever been. I even dare say, life is fucking sweet.

But I can't let that be my entire post. I mean c'mon, I had a great day, but there was a problem along the way. But that's expected. Nothing's perfect and if nothing bad happened, then that's what this day would've been, perfect. Besides, what's a LJ post without something a little negative?

In American History(Yes it's a junior class, and I am a senior, but I'm going to graduate no matter what.) my teacher, Ms. Blake, obviously had a stick up her ass. Now, I know it's nothing new for a teen to say that about their teacher, but this woman is down right bitter. There was nothing that would make this woman happy. Granted, I'm sure she's bitter because when she was younger she was married and had twins. Though with a twist of tradgedy. Her twins at a young age died in a car accident with a drunk driver, and her husband left her because she couldn't have children after the accident. Good reason to be a little bitter yes, but not toward a person you've hardly known for 4 weeks. There's nothing you can do to make this woman not hate you from the moment she meets you. So she screwed with a bit of my marvelous day. She gave me detention, shitloads of homework, and 2 essay s to write about terrorism. All because I asked for a pencil from the person next to me, so I could take a vocabulary test. I didn't fight with her. I feel bad for her. I'm sympathetic to her situation. No one should have to see their children die, and then be dumped by their husband becuase they can no longer Reproduce. But still, I have to reserve some kind of right to bitch about something. What's a teenager without bitching anyway? So yes... That sucks... Infact if it sucked any harder, I'd probably enjoy it. But I'll get over it. I'll do the work, walk in on monday, hand it to her, and wait for her to yell at me about something else. I guess this is where I'll cut it off.

Well, not yet. Got something about my band:

This month, around September 23rd, we're playing a show. It's out here in North Port, and it should cost like... 5 bucks to get in. There will be other good bands, but y'know, who cares about them. :D So I'd be greatfull some of you guys can make it, but if not it's cool. :D

Well, I guess that's all.

Thank's for reading~


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Dr. Hunter "Patch" Adams [07 Sep 2006|09:40am]
[ mood | happy ]

Patch Adams. (1998)

A movie released by Univeral Studios. It wasn't accepted to well when it debuted, but now has gather a "7 star rating." according to the IMDB (www.imdb.com). I, for one, love the movie. It was a movie that I had long called my favourite. A movie I could watch over, and over and never get bored. But I had realized something. I had never watched the movie for anything more than the comedic/dramatic value that it held. I never looked passed the character, played by Robin Williams. Well, as one could assume, I went to end the bothersome want to see the movie for more than what it was. I watched the movie twice, just to ensure that I was understanding everything, watching it in the new light I had.

I was confused. I knew Dr. Adams was a real man, but I thought it to be all to good to be true. So again, I had to nip the bothersome tick in the butt. I began to research the real Dr. Hunter "Patch" Adams.

Though it shouldn't have, it actually came to a huge surprise that he was as he was portraited. He was, rather he is a great man. All of his views, theories, methods... All so appealing, intriguing. A case where anti-conformity was used to the benefit of man. I can't speak for others, but I know I used to see anti-conformity appealing, but also misunderstood to the point where those that were refusing conformity, were misunderstanding it aswell. Either way, Dr. Adams is a man that had refused conformity, and is doing everything he can to gather awareness to make the world a better place.

I've come to the conclusion that I want to use Dr. Hunter "Patch" Adams as a role model. I want to expand my mind, and my friendship. I want to introduce compasion, not only to myself, but others around me... I need a new out look on life, and I'm glad I'm inspired by such a great man as Dr. Adams.

Humor, compasion, intelligence... Actually giving a shit about people, and their quality of life... Sounds great to me.

I'm going to begin sending letters to Dr. Adams. I want to converse with him. I want to bring topics up, and hear his thoughts on them. I want to meet Dr. Adams. I'm even toying with the idea of becoming a doctor, so I can not only work with the man, but in my way, expand his views, theories, and methods. Hey, he's only in Virginia, it's not an impossible dream to meet Dr. Adams.

Cheers to such a great man.

http://www.patchadams.org/home.htm (The Gesundheit Institute's website.)

"The most revolutionary act you can commit in today's society is to be publicly happy." -Dr. Adams

"With passion, anything is possible." -Dr. Adams

"See what no one else sees. See what everyone chooses not to see... out of fear, conformity or laziness. See the whole world anew each day!" -Arthur Mendleson (From the movie.)

"You're focusing on the problem. If you focus on the problem, you can't see the solution. Never focus on the problem!" Arthur Mendelson (From the movie.)

Lastly, my last post included information about my band, well, here's our profile's web adress:


That's all for now. :D

Thanks for reading.


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OMG [06 Sep 2006|03:57pm]
Oh man.. Things have been fucking great. XD My band, we gots music on our myspace AND a record deal. :D Awesome. Not much more than that. FUCK YES. :D


Yes, very fucking yes. :D His rants are awesome.
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Oh noes [10 Aug 2006|10:43pm]
[ mood | content ]

Well folks, I suppose I should update. :D

Mi pardre managed to get into some Chapter 13 crap and save the house, or maybe just stop the forclosure. Oh well, either way, no stress. :D

I've been feeling good lately. Really laid back. Extremely content. It's cool to be that way, haven't been there for the longest time. ~Cue cavemen, family guys style.~

Well, I guess that's really all. O_o

Lauren, did Harlee tell you I said "hi" ??

And thus I will finish off with my answer to a question on my online english course with FLVS

"Poetry is the art of creating imaginary gardens with real toads." A wonderful quote from Marianne Moore. After reading this quotation, it had me thinking. As a poet myself it seems to mean alot to me. A poem is inspired by feeling, feeling is gathered from experience, that experience becomes a memory, and the memory fuels imagination. From that point, your imagination takes away the reality, and crafts an "Imaginary garden." Within that, "Imaginary garden," sits a real toad. The toad being the experience seen in new light. That is why I've selected this quote. It explains what I've sought to explain so long to those who question how I write my poetry. It's my life, wrapped in imagination.

~Thanks for reading


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Oh noes. [10 Jul 2006|10:13am]
[ mood | confused ]

I suppose this is more of an informative entry toward everyone that reads it, than this is a normal recap of recent events.

As stated in recent entries, I've informed you of my problem with my house. Well, we lost it. That little shine of hope flickered out.

There's one thing that's good.. But bad at the same time about this.

Good: I'm moving back to Sarasota, and I'll be starting school at Riverview next year.

Bad: I've grown pretty fond of my friends down here, and I'll be leaving them all behind.. Not to mention my Girlfriend.

I suppose it's more of a bitter-sweet kind of thing.

I want to go back, I've wanted to go back since I got here... But now that I'm actually going back, I'm realizing that the chances of me even keeping in contact with the friends I've made down here are slim to none. I don't know what's going to happen with my Girlfriend either.. I don't want that to fall apart.. I really like her.

Guh... This is all to much... I'm totally and completely torn in this situation... I wanna go back, but I don't... Guh...

Oh well, it's not like what I say, or what I go through matters to my father, and his decisions. It didn't matter when we left Sarasota, and it wont matter leaving North Port...

Oh well, I can say one thing though.

Nick you were totally wrong. XD I'm definately getting outta North Port. :P The black whole's gravity was no match for me.

Oh, by the way, I'm not sure if I mentioned this yet, but I have a new screen name. O_o

Gomu Tsukeru

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KSDGLKSDNFH:KLsdng.khnsFKGNBSLDMFn [01 Jul 2006|01:18am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Don't you just fucking wish Murder was fucking legal?

Certain fucking people need to grow the fuck up...

Luckily I can't find my fucking bat.


New screen name... Gomu Tsukeru

Nick, 10 points if you can guess what that means. XD

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JUDGEMENT HAS BEEN PASSED!~ [27 Jun 2006|11:32pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Well folks, the verdict is in.. Please stand by as I open the envolope:...




Well ladies n' gent the VERDICT IS!!!


I've lost my house guys. I've got 45 days to leave, and I have no idea where we're gonna go...

Which definately sucks... Y'know.. I never thought that by the start of next school year, I'd be homeless...

This is lame.. I need a place to live... Not a shelter, not my brother's house crammed all into one room...


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Those Three words~ [08 Jun 2006|02:32pm]
[ mood | creative ]

This is a lovey kinda "<3" poem. I like it, I'm proud of it, so I wanna share it. All comments/critiques are welcome.

Those Three Words

I look into her eyes
And that moment means the world
And as I hold her close
I know I really like this girl

But how do I know
When it's the right time
To speak those three words
Of an affectionate kind

Stricken with this feeling
Of a blissfull high
Her presence is like a drug
And I've fallen into the sky.

With the clouds in place
To break my fall
There she stands
In beauty and all

But how do I know
When it's the right time
To speak those three words
Of an affectionate kind

As we hold eachother close
And the world fades away
I find there's just three words
That I want to say

But how do I know
When it's the right time
That questions been sitting
In the back of my mind

Plaguing my heart
I don't know what to do...
When's the right time
To say...

I love you...

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As the days progress... [04 Jun 2006|01:54am]
[ mood | calm ]

I guess I'll do that update regularly thing.. Y'know where I try and update as often as possible... Yeah, so I finally got a new userpic here on LiveJournal... Whoo! Look at him go =D

Anyway.. Since Alex (Girlfriend) went off for el summer, I haven't heard from her.. She was supposed to e-mail me as soon as she got to England (If I said Australia, I meant England.. She said her flight was landing in Melborne, and that's in England.) and she never did.. Y'see before I'd be all worried about it, because she went on an intercontinental flight, and hasn't contacted me in almost a week.. But it's no worries, I know she's fine. =) I just need to be patient. I've been playing Ragnarok, and Counter-Strike alot lately... I mean, what else is there to do? My Drummer went to Georgia, and he was our Singer's ride to practices, there's not much a bassist and a guitarist can do without the vox and drums... My girlfriend is outta the country... My car isn't repaired... So I've got gamming and Phone... Is it just me? Or does it sound oddly like last summer? O_o

Girlfriend away/no contact
No one to hang out with/nothing to do due to lack of transportation...
Limited to phone/gaming...

Throw in a random call from Lauren outta no where, to talk for like.... 30 seconds, and it's last summer exactly.

Meh, oh well. =D I'll make the best of it... Maybe I'll sit and better myself with my guitar.. Or I'll get down those three songs we have to cover for our gig... Meh, what ever.. I'm not gonna waste this summer by doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.... =) And I'm sure as hell not gonna lose sleep over not talking to Angelia.

<.< Oh well, I'm gonna go play more iRO...


Oh that's riiiigggghhhht You're all at MetroCon... Definately gonna have to get back to me with stories... Let me know how much more awesome it was this year that it was last year. =)

Catch you all later.

~Who knows, maybe my car will be fixed by next month, and I'll drop by Sarasota to check out the town of olde.

Welp, that's all for now...

Hope you guys are enjoying the shit outta Metrocon... XD And are having some extra fun for me! O_o ~Bellyflop~

Thanks for reading~


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Naturally... [01 Jun 2006|10:13pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well, obviously since it's already the first, I wont going to Metrocon.


-No money
-No room
-No transport

~End reasons.

No worries though, I did get my car like I wanted. =) It just needs an in-expensive tune up, and it's all good... So I guess I waited one year for a second experience at Metrocon, another wont hurt me. That's right, it's all about optimism now. I'm working on summer school classes so I'll actually be a senior next year, it's lookin' brighter that we'll keep the house, I've got my car, I've got almost a garaunteed job at Wal-mart (Actually thanks to Kenny... O_o) I'm on good terms with Angelia (Which was actually eating at me.. I felt bad for being a dick.) I've got a girlfriend,(With a British accent!!! ~for the win~) And I've got my band together again, and we're workin' out just fine... O_o Things are lookin' awesome these days... It's great. Oh, and we'll have a gig comming up soon. =) I'll try and get some more information up about that as soon as it comes in.

A 5 song set is pretty easy to cover, we're thinkin' 2 original songs, and 3 covers. Well, I think we'll do fine...

So yeah, I'll put up the date and location, as soon as we know.

X3 So when it comes up, if any of you still actually read this, I want you to come out. =D And remember, if we suck, we're Better Than Nothing.


Welp, I guess this is the wrap up part. O_o

Talk to you all later.


(Oh, Nick, Wendy wants you to message her on Myspace.)

Thanks for reading.~


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Been a while... Guess I should update. [18 May 2006|05:20pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Well.. some stuffs has happened since my last update... There's still the 95% chance we'll lose the house... Sucks, but what ever. I'm not gonna let it bother me anymore. I have a girlfriend now, her name is Alex Tkacz. She's from england, and has an accent and everything. =D She's simply amazing... And has the softest lips I've ever felt against mine. (And she's gorgeous.)

I guess there's not much else to report... O_o I've pulled my band back together... We're almost a full band, just need another guitarist an all that.

It's cool.

Oh, and the idea of Metrocon for me is totally, and completely gone...

Meh, oh well... Always next year. I guess I'll start updating more often too...

Cheers for girlfriends that rock!

~Thanks for reading


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Four years ago. [22 Apr 2006|06:47pm]
[ mood | Bored/Sad ]

It was four years ago, that my life completely flipped. Four years ago, I lost something very, very important to me. I still needed, no, I still need what I lost that day. I need her guidance, I need her love. It's been four years. Four years already... I still remember it, like it happened yesterday, hell it feels like it was yesterday. I remember the last words she said, I remember the last words I said to her... I remember the entire day... It plays over, and over in my head. I wouldn't quite say it haunts me... But though I've become content with my position in life, I can't get passed it. It's a bad day for me, and I wish there's was a better memory for April 22nd.. But there isn't... There's nothing that could ever be powerful enough to take that place in my mind... Nothing will ever be as life altering as when my mother passed away. I'm sure there's still some of you who still don't know exactly what happened... I know there's maybe two of you I've told the story to. Well, more for the sake of the memory, rather than telling the story, I will. Feel free to skip it if you want, it'll all be in italics so it's easy to get passed.

~Background: My mother had become ill with a rare lung diseas seven years before she passed. The doctor had diagnosed her with only two years, yet she managed to live for 7. We all knew she was going to pass... We didn't have the money, and her place in line for a lung transplant was to far down... Though we thought we were ready, we weren't... This is how the course of the day went...~

Early morning, about the hour of 6:00 am, I was awoken by the calls of my father, "Time to get up! School!" I called down to him in acknowledgement, and proceeded to rise from my bed. Walking from my room downstairs and into my parents bedroom, I said my good mornings. My mother, she was breathing abnormally heavy. I was nervous, but thought nothing of it, she had been in a state like this before and it was only caused by a pinch in her oxygen supplies hose. I proceeded to check the line, and I walked back into the room. My father was sleeping again, but there was my mother laying on her side. "I checked the line mom, it's all cool," she looked at me with wide eyes, usually that ment I was seconds away from being slapped for doing something wrong. Her eyelids relaxed to a gentle, pallid state. "I love you, and I'm leaving. Don't miss me too much," she told me, as she closed her eyes. I shook my head, and gave a small laugh, thinking she was in a dream world again. "I love you too." I wispered as I walked back upstairs, with the intention of getting ready for school. I laid back down on my matress, and drifted off into a sleep with this abnormal empty feeling in my chest.

I woke sometime later, around the hour of 11:00 am, I sat up quickly, and sprinted down the stairs, and into my parents room. There my mother lay, covered in a blanket, sleeping gently. My father, however, was sitting on the edge of the bed rocking back and forth shaking his head. I looked to him with confusion, "Dad?" I spoke. He looked at me, his eyes were reddened from tears, it was difficult enough to see him crying... He was a strong man, I've never seen him cry. "Dad, what's the matter?" I said, still in the door-way of their room, "I think mommy's dead..." ... That very phrase, repeated in my head, and suddenly there was that emptyness again... He wouldn't joke about that, he wouldn't be faking this.... I simply turned and walked back upstairs. I walked into my room, and locked my door... I turned to face my wall, and I cried myself to sleep, the emptyness returned.

Yet again, sometime later I awoke.. I'm not sure of the time, I never checked. I felt the dried tears on my face.. I walked downstairs, and saw my brother pacing in my living room. "Jason?" I said timidly... He looked at me, he wasn't crying, though his eyes were red... He stopped dead in his movements, almost as though he was frozen... I continued down the stairs, stopping a little away from him. He came closer to me, and there was the empty feeling again, I knew what it had to be... "Is mom okay?" I asked... Everything went into a slow motion... He shook his head, and stepped forward. "No... No she's not..." He hugged me tightly... He was another strong man, that I'd never heard cry... But he was, he was crying.... and so was I...

So there it is, if you read it. That's what happened... Everything short of my complete and total emotional breakdown, as I watched them lower my mother into her grave... I apologize for the crappy story thing I turned it into, but it's better than just some stupid rambling.

I guess I'll get into another subject, so this update isn't all about my mother.

I've now heard from two people, other than Nick himself, that I'm just a copy of him. I will admit, there are somethings that I did use as influences to my personality. My appearance however, is in no way inspired by him. My facial hair, is the same as my father's, I shave, and line it the exact same way he does. My long hair? I made the decision to let my hair grow out, before I met Nick. If you don't believe me about that, too bad I guess. I don't speak like Nick, I don't have glasses, my hair isn't black... My interest in Anime, and the Japanese culture had spawned while I was still in New York... That wasn't "copied." I will say though, hadn't had an interest in learning the language until I met Nick. I was introduced to Dane Cook through Nick, yes. I don't like Dane Cook because Nick likes Dane Cook. I don't play guitar because Nick plays guitar, I don't draw because Nick draws.

I'm not a copy of Nick, I don't want to be, I don't plan to be. Appearance wise, is purely coincidental. Nick, is Nick. I am me.

This isn't meant offensively in anyway, it's just a statement in my defense.

Moving along I suppose.

I'll be trying out two vocalists tomorrow at my bad practice... Hopefully atleast one of them will be as good as they bother claim to be. If that goes well, and I get my vocalist, all I'm out is a bassist. They're probably the hardest to find... But I'll do it. Better Than Nothing with rise again.=D

And it's pretty awesome, because if we can get a three song cover set, we can get a gig in no time. People here in No Po are always looking for live entertainment. =D

Other shit news:

95% chance I'll be losing my house... We can't come up with $3000 dollars for them to even consider giving us another chance... I guess there's one thing good about it... >.> I'll be moving back to Sarasota, which I wanted... Though... Not under the circumstances I wanted... Fuck, I hope we don't lose this house... As much as I don't want to live here in No Po, I don't want to be homeless, and mooching off of my brother.

Better News to contrast the shit news:

If I can save up money, Metrocon is a definate. I've got someone who can room with me, and transport us to, and from the convention center.

I guess that's all...

~Thanks for reading~


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Guh... [16 Apr 2006|08:51pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Much happyness

Other news, Metrocon is lookin' a little brighter.

I got WoW, I don't find it addicting at all, but it's fun

I bought Kingdom Hearts, and Kingdom Hearts II, though I totally haven't gotten into it yet.

Yeah, well... Awesomeness.

Thank god for British accents.

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Oh shizzle. [31 Mar 2006|03:05am]
[ mood | Down ]

Well, I guess I'll update. It's been a little while and I have nothing better to do.

My plan to get back in touch with everyone has so far been limited to one, short conversation with Lauren. I haven't gotten around to talking to Nick, because he's always away. Similar situation with Stella, though she's just never online. As for everyone else, my buddylist on JRock3489 was deleted magically ~cough-fuck-up-uncle-cough~. That mission is still underway, though it's kind of at a stop right now. It'll be back soon. =D Nick, you'll prolly be the next one I actually talk to, if you're ever not away.

As for Metrocon plans. My search for someone to room with, came to a hault. No one's able to, so I guess I'll be missing out on something I've been looking forward to since the last day of last years con. It sucks, it most definately does, but I guess that's what happens when your 18 year old brother is a 400 pound useless hump, that's causing us even more financial problems than before. Oh, which reminds me. Becuase of him being a lazy bitch, and being 18, we no longer get the $1000 dollar check for him each month. Without that income, we're lucky enough to have food. Infact, if it wasn't for my job, we wouldn't have any utilities. This job was supposed to be purely for MY benefit, since I'm not 18 yet... Well whoopty-fuckin'-doo, all my money's going to bills, and we STILL might lose this house... I guess that's some good new... If they foreclose on our house (my dad's court date is on tuesday I think)I'll be going back to Sarasota... Only... I'll be fucking homeless, and either mooching off my brother, or in a fucking shelter... We shouldn't have to live like this... My brother should get off his fat, lazy fucking ass, and actually bring in some money, so we don't end up that way... But I guess that'll never happen... We all know how anti-social and lazy he is. It's sad... It's fucking pathetic... My family went from having $10,000 spending cash a WEEK, to being a broke ass, almost homeless shit pile... I fucking hate this. I need to do something with my life, I need to pick up and do fuckin' well in school, or there's no shot in hell that this families ever gonna get outta this hole we're in... Excuse me, did I say hole? I meant endless fucking pit.

Funny, that was supposed to be about the Metrocon situation... Oh well.

I don't know what else to say... I'm making money, and atleast I get my entire paycheck to do what ever the hell I want... over $400 to spend/save. I'm getting some new clothes on Monday, and I'm prolly gonna get a gamecube for the Naruto game. Guh what ever, I'm sure something will come up, and I'll have to use half my paycheck on something else for the house that we might very well lose anyway...

Well, atleast I can say one thing... Life isn't all shit holes and suckage about now... I've actually got friends willing to hangout with me again... Surprising? Maybe.


IT's back, as you've prolly all read... I wanted to get something for best stunt, but I guess nothing's lingered from Ye days of olde. Well, as I said in a comment on Nikku's journal, though it may not count... I tried to climb a tree that's thinner than Stella.

I guess that's all... I'm gonna go to sleep, it's 3:30 in the goddamned morning...

Here's to disappointments, financial shitholes, good friends, asshole awards, useless brothers, climbing paper thin trees, and possible homeless return to Sarasota.


~Thanks for reading.


"I swear I'll never give in. I refuse."
Best of You
Foo Fighters

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Gay. [24 Mar 2006|01:16am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Man, this sucks. So here I am, Friday morning. It's 1:16 and I'm not a bit tired. I'm not so sure, but it could have something to do with the fact that I'm sitting in my brother's living room, here in Sarasota, because my fucking electric was shut off. This wouldn't have happened if my fuck up uncle didn't decide to lose his wallet with my father's bank card in it. No being able to pay FPL = lose. Whatever, I can't really complain too much, it beats staying in a powerless house in the middle of nowhere. Guh, and I still have to go to school tomorrow... 35 mile trip, waking up at 5:30 here I come.

Moving along. I've got my ol' band revived I guess. Just me and my drummer again, but oh well, we still have the best name ever (Better Than Nothing). Hmm, does anyone actually know if the period would go inside, or outside the parenthesis? I've always wondered ... I've been told it's a matter of opinion, but that source is a pretty annoying stupid fuck in my math class, so I thought I'd ask some people with some sense. If any of you could let me know, that'd be great.

I've been wondering lately, why don't I talk to my friends from Sarasota anymore? Simple answer, I don't really know. O_o I have Dakota's, Nick's, Lauren's, Mike's(Spoony), Stella's, and Ashi's screen names... Yet I totally don't talk to them. Well, I started talking to Dakota again, but that still leaves out everyone else. Welp, I guess (if you're reading this) I'll try and message you guys some time, see who still cares to talk to me. XD.

I dunno what else to put here, I think I've got everything covered. Fuck up uncle? Check. Po' and powerless? Check. Band revival? Check. Friend situation? Check... Sounds like I've got it all. I dunno, I guess I'll go iron my clothes for tomorrow, then debate whether or not to shave now, or tomorrow morning after I get outta shower. We shall see, we shall see. O_o That's all for now.

Thanks for reading~


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GUH!!! [19 Mar 2006|11:28pm]
[ mood | Fucked. ]

I need help Metrocon style. I have all the money and all that, but my brother totally slacked, and fucked over my transportation plans... If I can get ahold of a hotel room would anyone that can drive wanna join in the rooming thing? Or anyone with a room that'd be able to let me stay? I'll pay part of the hotel cost.

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FINALLY!!! [14 Mar 2006|01:49am]
[ mood | happy ]

And booyah! I am back. Working full force on a totally restored computer. "Ultimate Boot Disk" I love you, if not for you, I'd still have that virus deeply imbedded past the first 63 sectors of my hard drive, that the boot disk for windows only accesses. Whoo, I like having a fully functional computer again. It makes me feel happy to know it's not gonna randomly restart on me while I'm typing something out... it's cool. Well nothing other than that to really report. Except there's so many fuck ups at work, that I'm schedueled almost everyday, so the owner doesn't have to scheduel the fuck ups... Oh well, more money.

Thanks for reading (If you do.)


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Hmm... I guess I'm back for the time being. [10 Mar 2006|12:04am]
[ mood | content/calm ]

Turns out the temporary replacement computer sucked... And this one still isn't healed totally, so I'm still pretty fucked computer wise, but I thought I'd update just incase anyone still cares. XD I dunno, I still read all your journals O_o I guess I like to know what's going on in the lives of my first real friends of well... First real friends ever.

My birthday was this passed Saturday. It was pretty cool I guess, my dad got me a cake and I blew my entire $300 paycheck on shit at gamestop, next paycheck goes entirely to Metrocon fund. Well, suprisingly I don't have much to say after all this time of not updating.. There's really not that much to report. I got turned down, again, It's cool though, she turned out to be one of those, "I don't like people, I actually don't really consider anyone ever friends, I just talk to them" kinda people. Oh well, onto greener pastures I guess. After I reach my goal for a $600 Metrocon bank, I'm gonna get me an accoustic guitar, and then that car I was looking at (96' Ford Taurus). I guess somewhere in between I'll actually get me some new clothes... Hmm... I should do that before the guitar... >.o Yes, most definately. Metrocon bank, clothes, guitar, car. That all I need now, I knocked out the games I wanted to get, with my first paycheck.

So yeah, other than being mentally beaten down again, because I'm apparently repulsive, things have been well. I mean, as well as they can get when most of your friends start ignoring you for no reason. Most of them have been friends since the 6th grade, so they get a little inside conversation going that remotely ties into their friendship from back then, and no one else matters. Well, yeah... I'm tired, I've got some laundry to finish, cause I wanted to wait til the last minute.. Meh.. I'm going, I'm done... >.< I'll just keep flirting with this British girl I met (Who seems to be taking in the flirting, and is sending it right back.) And now? What now? My pillow calls to me, and yet, I can't answer yet.. DAMN IT.. >.> Clothes + Dryer = Sleep soon to come. GOOD NIGHT!

Mmmmm work on Saturday and Sunday. @_@

Oh well, money. =D

Thanks for reading~


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